Update...

Ok, I know it has been a while since my last post, but things have been crazy to say the least. I just got off the phone with my fertility doctor and today we are starting our journey into making a baby, the unconventional way :). I am so excited to say that we have decided to conceive via egg donation! After countless hours of research into adoption, genetic testing and other ideas, Forrest and I felt that this would be the next best thing to me having a baby on our own. My doctor told us that egg donation gave us our best odds of having a healthy baby and it would save us lots of heartache in the long run. (If you don't know our history, because of everything that happened with Beck, they told me that I am a carrier of a balanced genetic translocation and that it would be hard to have babies on our own with out a very high risk of miscarriage, stillbirth or a severly disabled child). The thought of going through any more of those 3 senerios is not something that mentally and emotionally I feel like I want to do...which is another reason egg donation is so appealling. I can carry a baby, but my eggs aren't all normal, so we can bypass the bad part and go straight to the good stuff!

We have also decided to use one of my dearest and best friend's eggs. This is the part the excites me the most! I am first of all so grateful that she is willing to endure daily injections of hormones and an invasive procedure so that I can have a baby. Knowing I will have such an amazing, caring, smart, beautiful and giving person's genes is such a comfort. I can' wait to see how this baby will be and who they will become!

We are charting a new and unknown path, but I am confident and hopeful for the future. I will try and keep up with everything...The holidays are going to be hard and we will be starting everything next week. They say if everything goes as planned, I should be pregnant by mid-February! That sounds so weird to say and it has been something I have wanted to say for such a long time...It makes me emotional just to think that a healthy, stress free, "normal" pregnancy could only be a month away!